Offering No Resistance

I remember good ole Eckhart Tolle saying years ago, when I first encountered presence teachings, “the ego is resistance.” To offer no resistance is to offer no ego. But I found this to be trickier than it appears at first glance.

My system has always had a kind of built-in resistance to what arises – a very unconscious mechanism. It was unconscious in the sense that I couldn’t see that it was happening. A craving, seeking thought, emotion or some other arising would happen and then, along with it, there was a kind of resistance or what I call “a push” against it. This was a subtle kind of trying to push away or change what was appearing. And in that pushing or trying to change, the arisings would stick around and there would be some form of identication with them. Everything felt like me – every thought, emotion and sensation – and because it felt like me, it seemed as if I had to do something with it. Mainly, there was a sense of needing to get rid of whatever was uncomfortable or painful. Therein lied my suffering.

One night while lying in bed, I just began to say “offer no push” and “offer nothing” to this thought, to that emotion, to this sensation. It helped me to see this built-in resistance mechanism in action. It helped me see the resistance towards stuff that I was experiencing internally, in the field of thoughts, emotions, and sensations. It was a deeply loving way of surrendering. But surrender is where it gets tricky. I thought, like many others, that surrender was something that would just happen in one fell swoop, like a magic bullet moment after which all resistance would just fade completely and never reappear. I have to admit that my own investigation of experience was not that clean and simple.

My investigation has been more like seeing layers under other layers of resistance. There came a point at which many of the usual kinds of ego thoughts were just allowed to come and go and then eventually quiet. You know the kind – “I’m not good enough,” “I’m not there yet,” “I am afraid of you.” I’m speaking about all the obvious “me” story thoughts. But underneath all that, once it quieted, I found a deeper layer of resistance against even the physical sensations of the body.

At this core level, the resistance felt almost primal, as if it was built into the very fabric of being human with a body.

But this is when “offering no push” became an even deeper practice. Lying quietly in bed each night and even during the day, I began to notice the “push” even more, with all of its many variations, appearing over and over. Whatever seemed to be appearing externally in my life – the people I would encounter and the situations that would trigger me – all boiled down to these pushes against the physical experience of a body with all its fight, flight, freeze responses, reactivity and seeking at the sensory level. As I offered no push and even allowed the push totally when it happened, the external changed. The problem wasn’t “out there.” It was “in here,” in this push against the internal appearances of sensation. As the push relaxed, the fight against the external began to relax, revealing the inseparability of the internal and external experience of life. The wall of separation between me and the life it seemed I needed to fight against began to dissolve.

I smile when I hear people say, “I need to accept this situation.” Many times they are referring to the need to accept someone else’s behavior or a situation they find themselves in. But if they could just see that the real key is offering no resistance to the thoughts, emotions and sensations, they might see that acceptance happens naturally within. And that transforms the outer circumstances and relationships in life. Offering no resistance to a craving can naturally diminish the power of the craving. Offering no resistance to fear can naturally diminish its power.  Offering no resistance to a blocked energy gives it room to open and dissolve.

What a wonderful insight to see that we hold the power of acceptance right in our hands, within our own internal experience. We each hold the key within us to transform our entire experience both inward and outward and therefore to transform the world as we see it. In what ways are you pushing against your experience? Just notice and offer nothing.

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Dan McLintock is a Certified Facilitator, Trainer and the Co-Developer of the Kiloby Inquiries method/approach the New Model of Recovery along w Scott Kiloby. 

A Jacksonville, Florida native, Dan graduated Flagler College in 2004 with B.A. in Theatre Arts and English Literature and has played music professionally in bands for over 20 years. But his true passion lies in sharing the context, possibility and practicality of healing, awakening and release. 

Dan has worked one-on-one with clients in and out of the Kiloby Center since 2017 and has an unconditionally loving and earnest approach to healing trauma, dissolving the drivers of addiction/suffering and unhooking long-held toxic beliefs about ourselves, others and the world at large. 

He’s also worked intensively, side-by-side with Scott Kiloby for the past three years to develop the transformative tools of the Kiloby Inquiries as well as the principles and approach of the “New Model of Recovery” rooted in unconditional love and non-judgment. Much of this approach was borne out of Scott and Dan’s work with each other on their own personal traumas as well as their work with clients at the Kiloby Center. 

Scott and Dan have simplified, demystified and condensed some of the principles and practices of eastern/non-dual spirituality into an easily accessible set of tools most anyone can understand, learn and utilize to free themselves from their own suffering. 

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Valerie Vinger is a thriving survivor of life’s painful challenges and growth opportunities. She has worked with 12-step programs and is currently a 13-year stage-III cancer survivor. Her cancer recovery journey started with the traditional “cut, poison, burn” approach but eventually led her down a natural path to healing her body, her pain and suffering, and her buried emotions.

Valerie first stumbled upon Scott Kiloby at a workshop of his in Boulder, Colorado in 2012, which she says is one of the most transformative experiences she’s ever had. She is filled with gratitude for the person she has become through her journey with cancer recovery and with the Inquiries, which she describes as “coming home to myself.” She loves working with people who are ready for relief from their pain and suffering.

Julianne Eanniello is a Certified Trainer and Facilitator of both the Kiloby Inquiries and the Unfindability Inquiries (formerly called the Living Inquiries). She is also a Certified TRE Practitioner, and the developer of the somatic movement process called Natural Flow Movement. She works with clients all over the world on virtually any topic, including spiritual seeking, stress, anxiety, depression, pain and health related issues, traumatic experiences, repression, relationship issues, and general unhappiness with ourselves and our lives. She does this through online sessions, deepening courses, workshops and facilitator certification training.

About Julianne:

For most of my life I’ve wondered who I am and why I am here. As I was growing up, no one else seemed to be talking about these things, or even thinking about them, so I buried it deep inside and tried my best to fit in the way I was “supposed” to, all the while feeling like there was something desperately wrong with me and that I needed to fix it.

In my early thirties, the death of a young relative left me feeling hopeless and helpless, wondering what is the point of life if we’re all just going to die anyway? This launched me on a search. I didn’t even know what I was looking for, I just knew that there was a longing – a desperate longing for something that actually made sense about life. I learned several alternative spiritual and healing techniques. I meditated. I read books and watched videos. I eventually learned of non-duality teachings, and I read more books, watched more videos, and even sat with several ‘awakened’ teachers. Yet I was still searching, something still felt missing. I was looking for the key that would unlock the mystery of me and of life.

In my early forties, I developed a chronic health condition that left me unable to work for several years, and most days barely able to get out of bed due to extreme fatigue, brain fog and pain. I lost my banking job, and eventually lost my home. I saw a multitude of doctors to try to find out what was wrong with me, and used every tool in my metaphysical and alternative medicine toolkit to try to heal myself. My seeking became even more intense, and I was looking for a way to escape my pain.

In 2009, I met Scott Kiloby. Since I started working with him and doing the Living Inquiries, the seeking for enlightenment has stopped, and the question of ‘who am I’ is no longer relevant. My victim stories around my health started falling away. Once I started looking at my experience through inquiry, everything changed. I stopped chasing something ‘out there.’ I no longer seek some future state of happiness or peace. This is not to say that I don’t have problems, or ever experience pain. Quite the contrary. I still use the inquiries regularly, and now there is much less avoidance or resistance to what I’m experiencing. I experience more and more freedom in the present moment, exactly as it appears.

Having trained with Scott, I was one of the first to be certified as a Senior Living Inquiries Facilitator and Trainer in early 2012. In 2014, I moved to CA and became a business partner with Scott at The Kiloby Center for Recovery, where we worked with people suffering from addiction, anxiety, depression and more for the next 8 years.

I can’t imagine my life without these inquiries. They saved me from myself. If you are still suffering, searching, longing… I encourage you to give this a try.

As a young child I saw a picture of Jesus gazing lovingly at some children around his feet. I immediately longed for the unconditional love I saw in his gaze. At the same time, I was being read fairy tales, like Cinderella, and came to believe that romantic love would satisfy that longing for love.

So, I married my handsome prince at age 19. But then, by age 29, I found myself alone, as a single mother, with four young children. I was devastated and convinced that something was terribly wrong with me, to have ended up in such a predicament. 

I had learned to love and please others, but not how to love and respect myself. I was a “good girl,” and repressed my urges to have my own needs acknowledged and met. A wise teacher later told me, “We need to love everyone, including ourselves.” This was an amazing revelation for me!

Learning to meditate helped immensely to bring moments of peace, while I was sitting still, though I was still being triggered regularly in my relationships. Finally, the Kiloby Inquiries taught me how to turn my attention inside in daily life – towards the trapped thoughts and emotions I’d been running from – so that I could face and release them. It was like some tender, lost children began coming home, to take their rightful place in my inner world. 

I am honored and excited to be able to facilitate these wonderful inquiries for others.

Sumitra lives on the Hawaiian island of Kauai with some of her family. She has four grown children and six grandchildren. For many years she lived and worked in a yoga retreat community in California, and has taught yoga, meditation and Compassionate Communication in addition to facilitating the tools of the Kiloby Inquiries (since 2013).

Sumitra also loves working with couples and others with relationship challenges in a simple (though not always easy) deep listening practice that allows each person to be truly heard and acknowledged.

Alina is a certified KI facilitator & a founder of Presence Alchemy – An advance mindfulness platform dedicated to liberating suffering & limiting core beliefs through Kiloby Inquiries & non-dual awareness. Presence Alchemy was born eight years into Alina’s embodiment journey of an inner shift from ego to wakefulness. Alina works one-on-one with clients, hosts online intensives and training, and organizes local retreats & workshops.
Alec Rodrigues has been certified to facilitate inquiry since 2015 and brings a keen sense of intuition to his work. He believes that in connection, the deepest healing takes place, that the mirror of relationship is the best crucible for transformation. Through rest and inquiry, Alec has found the empowerment to meet others authentically and stop running so damn fast from the seeming “ordinariness” of life.

He currently lives in Washington state with his girlfriend and works as a training assistant for the KI Personal Mentorship Program, where he empowers enrollees by teaching them the KI tools.