Like A Breeze

The temptation to believe some version of the story “There is something wrong” can be very powerful.  It keeps you feeling as if you are missing something fundamental at the core.  It keeps you striving to improve yourself, always looking for some better version of yourself in the future and looking for others to change so that you can be at peace.

The story, “There is something wrong with me,” lies at the core of who we think we are.  It’s insidious, showing up in so many different forms, which try to trick you into believing that you aren’t there yet, aren’t valid, aren’t loved, aren’t important, or some other story along those lines.

These thoughts arise throughout the day in very unconscious ways.  Sometimes we don’t even see them.  Yet they are there, operating within the mind, running the show of our lives.  They are like branches of one central tree trunk.  I call that trunk the core, deficient self.  If you can let each one of those branches blow through present awareness like a breeze that blows through the air, and then feel directly the emotion that arose with that thought, you cannot help but love yourself, others, and life.  This is because love is very natural.  You don’t have to cultivate or act in loving ways.  If you do that, you are most likely trying to fit yourself within an image of what love looks like or what it does.  Love is much too unpredictable.  It can’t be pinned down into a code of conduct.  Love means loving everything, including the darker energies of anger, sadness, and fear that arise with some version of “I’m not good enough.”  We act lovingly and selflessly, very naturally, by seeing through the core stories we tell about ourselves.  The only thing really obscuring that love is the constant clinging to these various branches that tell you that there is something wrong with you.

Be the air.  Let each breeze blow by.  Love yourself that much.  If you refuse to follow these thoughts, and instead rest without thoughts each time you see some version of the story “I’m not good enough,” you begin to realize a perfection, love, and wholeness that is not intellectual.  It is your experience.  This is the most profoundly healing thing you can do for yourself.  Start now.  And welcome anyone who criticizes you.  Take what they say personally.  Let yourself feel the hurt within the body that arises.  Don’t entangle yourself in the thoughts.  Let the thoughts come and go.  But feel the anger, the fear, the sadness directly, without labels.  Let that energy arise fully.  You will see that even that energy is love.  The mind cannot grasp this.  It has to be experienced to be known and appreciated.

The more you do this, the more you are convinced of your natural perfection and of the natural love that is your experience.  Do this for yourself and watch your relationships automatically harmonize themselves.  Most disharmony in relationship comes from the belief that you are deficient in some way.  And so you look for others to cure or fix that deficiency.  But others cannot give you this profound healing and transformation beyond self.  They are only a mirror for you.  Let their hurtful words, their angry stances, and their fear-inducing stories act as a catalyst for your own awakening.

Literally dismiss every thought you have about yourself that is some version of “there is something wrong with me.”  In that seeing, you come to see that there is nothing wrong with you.  And there is nothing wrong with others.  They are doing the best they can, often dealing with their own stories of deficiency.  Don’t worry.  Without the story, “There is something wrong,” you will still be able to function, take care of your body, go about your day, be fully and intimately in relationship, and even leave relationships that are toxic and unhealthy.   “There is something wrong” is not a necessary story for living and, in fact, it is a lie.  Why live a lie?  Let that lie breeze through you.  Be that open.  Be that vulnerable.  Be that intimate with life as it appears instead of telling yourself that there is something wrong with what is appearing.  There is nothing wrong.  Life is simply living itself.  It is only a thought that says “There is something wrong.”  To believe that there is a part of life that is wrong and that this part is YOU is horrendous and life-denying.  To live the full expression of your own individuality without the story “there is something wrong with me” is quite wondrous and joyful.  I highly recommended it!

"Working with Dan has been nothing short of transformational. His open heart, honesty about his personal experience and permission to be real and not hide have helped me unlock those qualities in myself. And that has been a total game changer. I've been truly blessed, not only to have him as my KI Facilitator, but also as my mentor. Without a doubt, working with him has helped me to show up authentically, helped sharpen my tools and made me a better facilitator than I would've been on my own. I can't recommend him enough."
Darby Totten
Certified KI Facilitator

Dan McLintock is a Certified Facilitator, Trainer and the Co-Developer of the Kiloby Inquiries method/approach the New Model of Recovery along w Scott Kiloby. 

A Jacksonville, Florida native, Dan graduated Flagler College in 2004 with B.A. in Theatre Arts and English Literature and has played music professionally in bands for over 20 years. But his true passion lies in sharing the context, possibility and practicality of healing, awakening and release. 

Dan has worked one-on-one with clients in and out of the Kiloby Center since 2017 and has an unconditionally loving and earnest approach to healing trauma, dissolving the drivers of addiction/suffering and unhooking long-held toxic beliefs about ourselves, others and the world at large. 

He’s also worked intensively, side-by-side with Scott Kiloby for the past three years to develop the transformative tools of the Kiloby Inquiries as well as the principles and approach of the “New Model of Recovery” rooted in unconditional love and non-judgment. Much of this approach was borne out of Scott and Dan’s work with each other on their own personal traumas as well as their work with clients at the Kiloby Center. 

Scott and Dan have simplified, demystified and condensed some of the principles and practices of eastern/non-dual spirituality into an easily accessible set of tools most anyone can understand, learn and utilize to free themselves from their own suffering. 

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Valerie Vinger is a thriving survivor of life’s painful challenges and growth opportunities. She has worked with 12-step programs and is currently a 13-year stage-III cancer survivor. Her cancer recovery journey started with the traditional “cut, poison, burn” approach but eventually led her down a natural path to healing her body, her pain and suffering, and her buried emotions.

Valerie first stumbled upon Scott Kiloby at a workshop of his in Boulder, Colorado in 2012, which she says is one of the most transformative experiences she’s ever had. She is filled with gratitude for the person she has become through her journey with cancer recovery and with the Inquiries, which she describes as “coming home to myself.” She loves working with people who are ready for relief from their pain and suffering.

Julianne Eanniello is a Certified Trainer and Facilitator of both the Kiloby Inquiries and the Unfindability Inquiries (formerly called the Living Inquiries). She is also a Certified TRE Practitioner, and the developer of the somatic movement process called Natural Flow Movement. She works with clients all over the world on virtually any topic, including spiritual seeking, stress, anxiety, depression, pain and health related issues, traumatic experiences, repression, relationship issues, and general unhappiness with ourselves and our lives. She does this through online sessions, deepening courses, workshops and facilitator certification training.

About Julianne:

For most of my life I’ve wondered who I am and why I am here. As I was growing up, no one else seemed to be talking about these things, or even thinking about them, so I buried it deep inside and tried my best to fit in the way I was “supposed” to, all the while feeling like there was something desperately wrong with me and that I needed to fix it.

In my early thirties, the death of a young relative left me feeling hopeless and helpless, wondering what is the point of life if we’re all just going to die anyway? This launched me on a search. I didn’t even know what I was looking for, I just knew that there was a longing – a desperate longing for something that actually made sense about life. I learned several alternative spiritual and healing techniques. I meditated. I read books and watched videos. I eventually learned of non-duality teachings, and I read more books, watched more videos, and even sat with several ‘awakened’ teachers. Yet I was still searching, something still felt missing. I was looking for the key that would unlock the mystery of me and of life.

In my early forties, I developed a chronic health condition that left me unable to work for several years, and most days barely able to get out of bed due to extreme fatigue, brain fog and pain. I lost my banking job, and eventually lost my home. I saw a multitude of doctors to try to find out what was wrong with me, and used every tool in my metaphysical and alternative medicine toolkit to try to heal myself. My seeking became even more intense, and I was looking for a way to escape my pain.

In 2009, I met Scott Kiloby. Since I started working with him and doing the Living Inquiries, the seeking for enlightenment has stopped, and the question of ‘who am I’ is no longer relevant. My victim stories around my health started falling away. Once I started looking at my experience through inquiry, everything changed. I stopped chasing something ‘out there.’ I no longer seek some future state of happiness or peace. This is not to say that I don’t have problems, or ever experience pain. Quite the contrary. I still use the inquiries regularly, and now there is much less avoidance or resistance to what I’m experiencing. I experience more and more freedom in the present moment, exactly as it appears.

Having trained with Scott, I was one of the first to be certified as a Senior Living Inquiries Facilitator and Trainer in early 2012. In 2014, I moved to CA and became a business partner with Scott at The Kiloby Center for Recovery, where we worked with people suffering from addiction, anxiety, depression and more for the next 8 years.

I can’t imagine my life without these inquiries. They saved me from myself. If you are still suffering, searching, longing… I encourage you to give this a try.

As a young child I saw a picture of Jesus gazing lovingly at some children around his feet. I immediately longed for the unconditional love I saw in his gaze. At the same time, I was being read fairy tales, like Cinderella, and came to believe that romantic love would satisfy that longing for love.

So, I married my handsome prince at age 19. But then, by age 29, I found myself alone, as a single mother, with four young children. I was devastated and convinced that something was terribly wrong with me, to have ended up in such a predicament. 

I had learned to love and please others, but not how to love and respect myself. I was a “good girl,” and repressed my urges to have my own needs acknowledged and met. A wise teacher later told me, “We need to love everyone, including ourselves.” This was an amazing revelation for me!

Learning to meditate helped immensely to bring moments of peace, while I was sitting still, though I was still being triggered regularly in my relationships. Finally, the Kiloby Inquiries taught me how to turn my attention inside in daily life – towards the trapped thoughts and emotions I’d been running from – so that I could face and release them. It was like some tender, lost children began coming home, to take their rightful place in my inner world. 

I am honored and excited to be able to facilitate these wonderful inquiries for others.

Sumitra lives on the Hawaiian island of Kauai with some of her family. She has four grown children and six grandchildren. For many years she lived and worked in a yoga retreat community in California, and has taught yoga, meditation and Compassionate Communication in addition to facilitating the tools of the Kiloby Inquiries (since 2013).

Sumitra also loves working with couples and others with relationship challenges in a simple (though not always easy) deep listening practice that allows each person to be truly heard and acknowledged.

Alina is a certified KI facilitator & a founder of Presence Alchemy – An advance mindfulness platform dedicated to liberating suffering & limiting core beliefs through Kiloby Inquiries & non-dual awareness. Presence Alchemy was born eight years into Alina’s embodiment journey of an inner shift from ego to wakefulness. Alina works one-on-one with clients, hosts online intensives and training, and organizes local retreats & workshops.
Alec Rodrigues has been certified to facilitate inquiry since 2015 and brings a keen sense of intuition to his work. He believes that in connection, the deepest healing takes place, that the mirror of relationship is the best crucible for transformation. Through rest and inquiry, Alec has found the empowerment to meet others authentically and stop running so damn fast from the seeming “ordinariness” of life.

He currently lives in Washington state with his girlfriend and works as a training assistant for the KI Personal Mentorship Program, where he empowers enrollees by teaching them the KI tools.